• sara reads the feed

    Flappy Bird on Playdate, Lizzo isn’t lazy, and so-called AI in Furiosa

    My family spent the first two days of this three-day weekend binging all four seasons of Star Trek: Lower Decks. I saw some fans on Bluesky talking about streaming ST:LD to boost numbers, hoping we can get more seasons, and my entire family likes the show so it was convenient anyway.

    Man, I love that show. It’s truly our perfect Trek.

    That is a lot of TV, though. I think my body is now couch-shaped.

    ~

    Most of the homeschooling I’ve done with my teenager is focused on history, media analysis, literacy, evaluating sources, and other things that I’m good at. We haven’t really been doing math at an appropriate level. Our family has some very specific oddball learning disorders, and trying to figure out how to do math around that has been a challenge.

    I actually really like math, and I’m not bad at it. But most math concepts after the early grades can’t be taught naturalistically. You can work on numbers with wee kids at the grocery store, while cooking, etc. Getting into complicated stuff demands simply sitting down with paper to do the work.

    This morning I spent a while making brand-new math worksheets so we can do maths this week. I used to make worksheets for myself, for fun (yes, I am a nerd), so all the formatting and whatnot is something I do easily. I’m using a common core workbook to provide the problems, but I’m eliminating repetition, and I’m simplifying explanations of the concepts that I find on reputable websites. Luckily there is lots of help in math for this age level. I just need to reshape it so that I can dodge the learning blocks appropriately. (I hope…)

    I’m also adding in cat jokes to make it more relevant to my kid’s interests. And mine. Cat jokes are great.

    ~

    Someone made a Flappy bird clone for Playdate. (Engadget)

    In other small consumer device news, the Kobo Clara Color looks like a nice e-reader. (Engadget) As an author, I really like Kobo’s book subscription reading service. I might actually end up getting a Kobo next time I’m shopping for an e-reader.

    ~

    While talking to NPR Books, Stephen King said he thinks you can’t gross out the American public — you can’t go too far. Playfully, I say that I’m really gonna test that with my book Insomniac Cafe. I don’t even know if publishers will wanna touch it. But I’m trying to be so, so gross. I think I can go too far. It’s one of my class skills.

    ~

    Memorial Day Weekend movies didn’t do so hot. (Variety) Furiosa’s not pulling people into the theater, and neither is Garfield, although the latter is better at it. I think Garfield is a pretty good example of the way that families with young kids will see basically anything kid-oriented because it’s just Something To Do with the kids. Still, the movie industry isn’t happy with the returns.

    Talking about Furiosa, which was a perfectly fine movie, AI usage is cited for putting the older actress’s face over the younger’s. (Variety) Generally this is probably one of the better uses of AI, since it’s not theft, and it’s building off older tools that movies have been using since Benjamin Button. The usage was effective for me. It looked fine.

    I’m still disappointed to hear it honestly. It’s a shame that they diminished Alyla Browne’s ability to be seen, since I found her to be my favorite of the movie’s two Furiosas. I don’t think having different faces between different ages has ever really hurt movies, period. It doesn’t seem necessary. Everyone knows that movies aren’t real.

    Also: I thought they didn’t use Charlize Theron because she’d have visibly aged so much since Fury Road, but apparently they don’t mind changing someone’s face? Maybe George Miller just resented her (Vanity Fair) for being annoyed at her co-star’s unprofessional behavior. I’m totally Team Charlize on that. And if we’re gonna be de-aging Harrison Ford when he’s 120 year sold, why not woman action stars?

    ~

    AI continues to spread. I know Apple is planning more AI in iOS, and I’ve been wondering what that’ll look like (and whether it will lead to my total Ludditification). It sounds like AI emoji are one of the use cases. (Engadget) Eh, okay.

    Right now AI seems to be a hot thing for the money guys, so I think that a lot of companies are slapping the AI label on things that are not explicitly the AI I’m worried about. I don’t want the IP-thieving, most resource-intensive AI. But I’ve been using autopredict and other algorithmic stuff for ages. I’m really not a total killjoy about tech. AI emoji are probably fine.

    I don’t like the way Google’s formerly useful search engine is using AI summaries. Here’s an Ars Technica article about how to use a slightly better Google search again.

    ~

    South Park got into the whole medicalization of fatness thing lately, and they basically posed it as Ozempic vs Lizzo. To paraphrase: You take Ozempic if you don’t wanna be a fatass; you listen to Lizzo if you want to be a lazy fatass. (The Guardian)

    Lizzo isn’t my favorite, but let’s be real. This woman isn’t lazy. She’s just fat. She’s quite active as a dancer and does lots of exercise. She’s one of the pop stars who really performs! You get skinny by eating less (sometimes way less) but exercise has less an impact on size than it does body composition.

    Also, when my eating disorder was at its worst, I really did find Lizzo’s music to be a helpful part of my recovery. Believe it or not, it’s okay to like yourself at any size. Shocking, I know.

    I suppose there’s no point in observing that South Park is edgelordy neckbeard nonsense as usual, but I just had to give Lizzo credit where credit is due.

    Also, as you’d expect, the very-expensive Ozempic products are only a long-term solution if you keep taking them forever. (NPR) That’s not necessarily an issue. There are lots of medical conditions where you need permanent medication. But something like Synthroid and insulin are a *lot* more accessible than semaglutide products. Price alone is driving more Americans to avoid healthcare. (Quartz) Also, this class of weight loss drugs has potentially severe side-effects like gastropareisis (Quartz), so it’s not a solution for everyone.

    So maybe we should stop shit-talking fat people for being fat and accept it’s okay to love yourself however you are. Concern trolling over health is basically never benevolent — or anyone’s business — and fatness isn’t as noteworthy a character trait as our society pretends.

    If it helps, Psyche has an article about feeling more at-home in your body.

    ~

    Rich people really hate when others shame them. So they went to Congress and asked for anonymized private jet data. Congress said “Sure! We know who’s in charge here.” (Quartz)

  • sara reads the feed

    Alocasia are the woooorst, X-Men ’97 was so good, and fantasy fulfillment

    Alocasia are on my shit list. I usually talk shit about my maidenhair fern, but I have shit aplenty for alocasia too. Basically I hate plants that act like they’re gonna die, then come back looking extra cute like nothing happened.

    They’re emotional abusers, I’m telling you. Do they care if we suffer pain watching them die off again? NO, they do not. They just keep doing their little things like it’s a no-thing.

    Maidenhairs will die off if you forget to water them for a second; alocasia like dying off because they need lots of plant food. They’re the most fertilizer-hungry plants I’ve got. If you’ve got an alocasia that seems incapable of growing more leaves — like, every time it grows a new one, an old one must die — it’s usually because they aren’t getting enough nutrients.

    I’m terrible about remembering to feed my plants. My house has two levels, and the fertilizer lives on one level. So usually only one floor’s plants are getting fed at any given moment. Why not get a second thing of fertilizer, you ask? Or split the one into two? I keep asking myself that same thing.

    I also keep asking myself, why not just let the plants die-die, forever?

    There’s no tidy answer. I’ve been booting plenty other plants from my life, but these ones persist. Maybe the very fact they demand emotional reactions makes me more attached to them.

    Spider plants stick around even though I also find them frustrating. Their roots drive out all the soil in no time flat, and then they act like drama queens because they’re always thirsty. You can keep them alive. They’re hardy plants. But they get all ugly if you don’t keep up-potting them. A single spider plant (and it’s never a single spider plant) is said to max out with a twenty inch root ball diameter. I don’t have room for this many twenty inch-plus size pots. I mean, I have room, but not the lighting.

    Oh god, I need to upgrade my lighting, don’t I?

    At some point it’s likely that my house will be nothing but a few stubborn euphorbia, a couple orchids, and ten thousand pothos.

    And probably a single perpetually dying maidenhair hanging out with its spider mite-riddled single-leafed alocasia friends. Like some stupid asshole gang of stupid jerk plants. Stay gold, alocasiaboy.

    ~

    This sort of nonsense is why it makes total sense to me that baobab trees migrated across the ocean from Madagascar. (Smithsonian Mag) Plants can be so willful.

    ~

    Engadget: X-Men ’97 didn’t have to go that hard, but I’m so glad it did

    I truly hadn’t expected to love X-Men ’97 as much as I do. Easily my favorite TV show of 2024 at the moment.

    I don’t know why Beau DeMayo was fired (I don’t think anyone but DeMayo and his supervisors do), but it’s said he’s hard to work with. I have to side-eye that statement in regards to a queer Black man, but all right. What do I know? I’d love if they can sort through their issues and get him back on board. The gay-ass nature of X-Men ’97 is why I’m so attached to it. The fact it goes so hard is why it has my eternal devotion.

    Brad Winterbaum compares the genocide at Genosha to 9/11 (Variety), and doesn’t mention the Pulse nightclub shooting (Out).

    DeMayo has an influence on s2, and nothing to do with s3. (IGN)

    ~

    Cronenberg’s new movie, The Shrouds, sounds like an intensely personal piece about the grief of a widower. (Vanity Fair)

    I absolutely adore Crimes of the Future for being such an intimate narrative about disability and chronic illness. I don’t know if I’m going to see The Shrouds for a while, but the raw honesty of Cronenberg’s work is hypnotic. Aging artists deserve platforms to share their truths. We deserve these projects to help us along with age.

    ~

    I feel fonder of Challengers in retrospect than I did while watching it. It’s available to watch at home now (Variety), and I hope lots of people will. It wasn’t a movie for me — but I think it was kinda fabulous.

    ~

    The New Yorker discovered that movies like The Idea of You (and romances at large) work for some people because folks like fantasy fulfillment. Imagine that.

    ~

    NPR asked what brings sibling close together. I am very very close to one of my siblings (obviously) and good friends with my sister, so I reflected on this a moment.

    My answer is that caring about people can bring you close. I am a mess, and Sibling has always loved and cared for me through it. Sibling is a different kind of mess, and I love and care for them through that. We’re not codependent — but we know we can depend on one another when shit hits the fan. And we often have. That forges a unique bond.

    With my sister, I’d say what has us close is communication. Being willing to talk through awkward shitty stuff means that we can be close even though we have not had an especially warm bond over the years.

    It’s like any relationship: You choose to invest into it. The relationships you give attention will thrive. They must be watered and fed like those fuckin’ alocasias.

    I had great friendships with older women when I was a young adult, and one thing a dear friend told me has always stuck out: Love is an action. It’s not a feeling. It’s what you do for and with each other.

    ~

    I used to go on a lot of cruises. I no longer do. There are so many reasons — human rights concerns, ecological damage, safety issues — but one of the big ones is that cruise ships are not humane about illness. If you get sick, you can get dumped anywhere. And if you need an emergency evacuation, you may not be allowed to leave until they’ve over-charged your credit card to pay their medical bill. (NPR)

    ~

    Disneyland performers have voted to unionize. (NPR) Good luck! I hope they get every single one of their needs met.

  • Diaries,  writing

    Update on writing Insomniac Cafe

    I’m tearing through my Friends rewatch now. I’m trying to make sure I finish it about the same time that I finish the rough draft of my book, Insomniac Cafe, which is a surreal horror Friends redux. Ergo my relentless Friendsposting on social media lately.

    I’m working on season five out of ten. Phoebe’s surrogacy for Frank+Alice is still weird (mostly because Frank+Alice are gross). Remember Frank+Alice? She was his high school teacher? They married when he was 18 and she was 44? I knew people this happened with IRL and I didn’t really grok how repulsive it is at the time. I’m currently 36, and the very idea of hooking up with an 18-year-old, much less someone I have power over like a student, makes me wanna peel my skin off.

    I forgot Chandler and Monica got together so early on the show. Although I always kinda think Chandler is a homo so deeply in denial he doesn’t even know it, I still love his relationship with Monica. They’re so freaking cute together. They manage to remain real friends while also being super enthusiastic about each other.

    It’s stark contrast to the relentless drama of Ross and Rachel, who I will never stop hating as a couple. Ross just doesn’t have redeeming qualities! (Note I must make on every single post: I adore David Schwimmer’s performance. Just wanna say, all the crap I talk about Ross doesn’t apply to the actor. The actor is hysterical. Ross is probably so loathsome because David’s so good at it.) And when the two of them are together, they are mi se ra ble. When they’re not together, they’re fighting and horrid. He’s so petty. Jealousy is one of my least favorite traits, and he’s *obsessively* jealous.

    I find it difficult to believe Ross and Rachel could ever be friends, much less long-term romance partners. She would just be constantly henpecked by the dude. I will not be doing nice things to Ross in my book.

    Speaking of names (were we speaking of names?), I decided not to play with the copyright protections of “parody” for Insomniac Cafe. So none of the characters are gonna be named Ross/Rachel/etc — they’re getting names based on the actors’ other comedy roles, mostly. Rachel will be named Joanna, after Aniston in Office Space. Monica is Gale, a la the horror-comedy Scream character. This is similar to Final Girls Support Group, which named actual horror movie characters after their actors (iirc).

    But I totally recast Ross because I love David Schwimmer and I’m gonna do bad, bad things to Ross. I call him Adam instead. As in…like…I mentally cast Adam Driver to play Evil Ross. lmao. Can you see it? I think this is the funniest thing in the world. The book is a little funny — black comedy, maybe — but calling Ross “Adam” because everyone is played by the Friends except Ross, who is Adam Driver, kills me every time I think about it.

    I’m still waffling about whether I actually kill off Ross and hook up Rachel with Joey, though. I love the pairing, but it’s pretty unpopular, and I don’t want people to be distracted from the ending by something like that? I’d prefer to keep the focus on the book’s themes. And all the really gross stuff in it.

  • A cute happy cartoon computer mascot character smiling and doing a thumbs up
    sara reads the feed

    Alas, more AI-related news

    Donald Glover and Wyclef Jean have been promoting Google’s AI initiative. (Quartz) Apparently using artists to promote it is meant to get ahead of accusations that AI is bad for artists. This deal doesn’t make me feel like AI is more acceptable; it makes me like those artists less. Normally I have lots of Childish Gambino on my writing playlists, and since reading this article, I’ve just been going “ugh” and skipping past it when he comes up.

    I make no secret of my anti-AI stance. There are just so many reasons to be opposed to it.

    To the best of my knowledge, none of the AI tools have datasets where the included data came from consenting people. Companies tend to do a lot of foggy language surrounding their data usage to make it hard to know whether your stuff is getting used, and it usually *is* getting used, as with Slack. (Ars Technica)

    Even Adobe, who’s been offering people money for video clips, is mostly working off of material which may be legally indefensible. (Hollywood Reporter)

    But behind closed doors, companies are warning that the way most AI systems are built might be illegal. “We may not prevail in any ongoing or future litigation,” states a securities filing issued in June by Adobe. It cites intellectual property disputes that could “subject us to significant liabilities, require us to enter into royalty and licensing agreements on unfavorable terms” and possibly impose “injunctions restricting our sale of products or services.” In March, Adobe unveiled AI image and text generator Firefly. Though the first model is only trained on stock images, it said that future versions will “leverage a variety of assets, technology and training data from Adobe and others.”

    Beyond that, it’s so, so bad for the planet. As I’ve previously shared, a ChatGPT prompt uses 15x the energy of a traditional web search, (Quartz) and some experts say it’s more complicated than even that. (Bluesky)

    I also just don’t understand why people want to use this stuff to replace human-made artwork. The act of creation is a solid 90% of the reason why stuff is good! Most of the magic occurs between artist and art. Whatever your favorite painting, I guarantee there is a lot more of a relationship between the painter and the work than you, who is looking at it. There’s the skills it took to get there, the techniques, the place they did it, the sensory experience of creation, the thoughts and feelings of making things come together.

    Frankly, everything AI produces is either bad (or hews closely enough to stolen material to be good, but arguably plagiaristic). It’s *not good* at what it does. The best work they promote has, at best, a sort of loopy dream logic that doesn’t stand up to any degree of scrutiny longer than scrolling past it real quickly on your feed.

    Nicole Thoughts Stained With Ink has a more comprehensive publishing-specific post about her anti-AI stance that I appreciated reading. Like she says, there are plenty of good uses for AI that we can benefit from. AI assistants can be really helpful on myriad matters. You could say that the anti-motion sickness tech Apple is trialing is a kind of AI (Jalopnik via Quartz). Also, we should be using AI to understand complicated scientific concepts that are too difficult or labor-intensive for humans to work on. That stuff is good. The art stuff is bad.

    Companies aren’t going to behave well of their own volition. Unfortunately, politics in America is extremely not ready to help with this. (Engadget)

    “It’s very hard to do regulations because AI is changing too quickly,” Schumer said in an interview published by The New York Times. Yet, in March, the European Parliament approved wide-ranging legislation for regulating AI that manages the obligations of AI applications based on what risks and effects they could bring. The European Union said it hopes to “protect fundamental rights, democracy, the rule of law and environmental sustainability from high-risk AI, while boosting innovation and establishing Europe as a leader in the field.”

    Schumer seems to disagree with finding that balance, instead stating in the interview that investment into AI research and development “is sort of the American way — we are more entrepreneurial.”

    And in the meantime, Google is doing more to bury actual search results under AI nonsense, (Ars Technica) but Childish Gambino is okay with that I guess.

    Every company and well-heeled musician isn’t all-in on this, though. Sony Music now prohibits AI developers from using its catalogue for training data. (Ars Technica)

    I would love for there to stop being AI-related news so I can stop writing posts like these.

  • sara reads the feed

    Collective action, responsible universities, and ongoing populist growth

    Collective action for real change

    Her Hands, My Hands talked about collective action over on her blog. Do you remember how we’re boycotting Kellogg’s? I admit, I haven’t thought about it in a minute. We don’t typically buy stuff from them anyway, but there are so many brands under the umbrella, I’m not sure how closely we’ve stuck to that.

    She’s got a clear vision for how we improve things long-term, and it’s the boring, unsexy work of civil responsibility.

    The only way to stop this cycle is by pushing politicians to pass bills that make such things illegal, with sentences and penalties that will actually hurt mega corporations’ bottom lines. As currently there’s little political will from politicians themselves, the public must engage with them to force them to act in line withe the majority of the public’s actual wishes–which means calling your local and state and federal electeds, often, *and* voting in every election–local, state, federal–for people who have either already delivered, or who you believe will deliver, on your actual values and goals. And then calling whoever wins that seat. Often.

    I was a lot better about all of this in 2016-2020, and then I was so broken and tired. Let this stand as a reminder that I have Political Adulting to do.

     

    Another university agrees to divest from Israel

    Although there’s a lot more noise around protests gone wrong, some universities have worked peacefully with protestors. In Ireland, Trinity College successfully came to an agreement.

    Also, a public university in northern California listened to protestors and came to an agreement. (AJE)

    Sonoma State would do more to disclose its contracts and seek “divestment strategies”, Lee wrote. It would also not pursue partnerships that are “sponsored by, or represent, the Israeli state academic and research institutions”.

    In exchange for the concessions, student activists agreed to dismantle the cluster of tents on campus by Wednesday evening.

    Students still remember that governance should be by and for the people governed.

     

    The Republican party marches nearer populism

    The Tea Party is officially gone. Politico covers the closure of FreedomWorks, which was a once-hot libertarian group.

    The organization cites Trump as the problem, and it shows how the Republican party is being pulled apart by opinions on the ex-president. It’s libertarianism vs populism, and populism seems to be winning.

    FreedomWorks leaders, for example, still believed in free trade, small government and a robust merit-based immigration system. Increasingly, however, those positions clashed with a Trump-aligned membership who called for tariffs on imported goods and a wall to keep immigrants out but were willing, in Brandon’s view, to remain silent as Trump’s administration added $8 trillion to the national debt.

    “A lot of our base aged, and so the new activists that have come in [with] Trump, they tend to be much more populist,” Brandon said. “So you look at the base and that just kind of shifted.”

    This same split was creating headaches in other parts of the organization as well. “Our staff became divided into MAGA and Never Trump factions,” Brandon said in an internal document reviewed by POLITICO Magazine. It also impacted fundraising.

    Considering that the GOP is now chaired by someone surnamed Trump, it’s clear that the party is all-in on a particular charismatic leader, and their stances are whatever his stances are. Is there room for anyone else?

    Even Mitt Romney, who has typically represented an Older Kind of Republican, asserts that Biden should have pardoned Trump for everything. (NBC) Apparently trying to hold Trump accountable for things is actually more pro-Trump?

    So what happens to the Republicans (former or current) who don’t wanna fall in with this populist movement? Genuine question.

    My guess is that the Democrats will increasingly court them and move further right. We’ve been seeing strong man-like discourse from Biden (largely in the form of Dark Brandon), and the Democratic party certainly has room for authoritarians. (Lawyers, Guns, & Money)

    That poses a problem for anyone left of center-right, and I think it’s gonna be a bigger issue going forward. The Green Party is unserious (they tend to hold anti-scientific stances, like anti-vaxx stuff) and there isn’t really anywhere for voters squeezed left to go. That’s possibly the greatest threat against Biden’s reelection, and the election of future Democratic presidents: A lot of leftward voters simply cannot abide the kind of imperial action Democrats are willing to take, and may not mobilize in support.

    I’ve got no predictions for how this turns out in the long term, but I hope that most of us can agree it’s easier to shout at Biden to do the right thing for another four years than deal with another charismatic populist Trump presidency.

    Look up top for that post about collective action. Even if Dems retake the presidency, we’re gonna need a lot of that for the next twenty years in order to avoid a high-level populist relapse.

  • Diaries

    Warm nights and long naps

    I went for a couple short walks tonight. It’s the time of year where there’s still light at eight o’clock, and you can wander through twilight at a balmy seventy-something degrees Fahrenheit. You only need a sweater if you want to keep the bugs off your arms. Nevada does sunsets like any desert state — think spectacular oranges and pinks striped against cozy midnight-blue — but we’re in a place that’s a touch more meadowlike than, say, much of Arizona.

    One of my favorite things about warm days is how you get glimpses of others’ lives. People out teaching their wee ones how to golf on the playground, folks using the park for batting practice, rugs thrown over fences to dry off, garage doors open to rearrange things, kids wandering with friends as they delay heading home.

    The birds sing pretty late at this time of year. There’s something roosting in my plum trees, low enough that I kept startling it walking underneath. I bet I won’t see many plums this year. The birds will eat them all, I’m sure. I’m all right with that.

    ~

    I can’t resist napping a lot. I don’t know what it is. I’ve been sober-sober from weed for months now — I quit at the end of January, and we’re well into May — yet it’s possible my body & brain are still healing from years of endocannabinoid fuckery, I suppose. It’s not like I’m doing a lot of physical activity. I stand a lot and walk a bit, but I’m not lifting the way I used to. I don’t leave home to go to work. Some days it feels like most of my activity is getting up to eat and standing sleepily at my standing desk for a while before going back to lie down again.

    Yesterday I managed to stay awake all day. I slept great the night thereafter. Then I napped for three freaking hours today! What’s up with that? I’ve had my thyroid and blood sugar tested and these things seem fine. Can I really still be recovering something like 110 days into sobriety? Maybe, maybe.

    Still, I am getting writing done, a thousand words at a time. I’m not zipping along very fast but working on Insomniac Cafe is weird because it’s a weird book. Trying to figure out the dismount on a surreal horror novel is tough. It needs to feel right, and say what I intend, and it needs to be deeply unsettling.

    While I don’t do a lot of active writing, I’m also working on my charcoal illustration, “make it make sense.” I’m kinda in the place where it looks ugly. All of my bigger pieces go through a long ugly stage (or two) where it’s blah and not very visually readable, and pushing through that is a pain. It’s hard to imagine I’ll ever get somewhere I like. I usually do. But I don’t know how.

    I wish I’d chosen a composition with more face in it. I really love doing human skin in charcoal. I didn’t want to do a face-focused portrait because I used to do them too much, but…I just really like doing skin!

    ~

    The quality time I’m getting with my kids right now is such a dream. My thirteen-year-old is more personlike than ever, but they’re also going through an especially indulgent stage where they just wanna do stuff with us. They don’t really care what. That means they’re watching more TV and movies with me than ever. All I ever wanna do is inflict my media on them. Show them the things that shaped me. Listen to their snark about Friends. That kind of thing.

    My nine-year-old is still a little bit of a baby, in his way. He’s also getting quite grown — don’t get me wrong. But reading “Understanding Comics” by Scott McCloud together has shown me specifically where he’s yet to neurocognitively develop abstract thinking. And that makes him feel like he’s still a wee bit of a sweet baby. He’s so sharp, though. He gets a lot more than he doesn’t. He demonstrates his understanding of many concepts (like the different ways you can arrange panels to modify the readers’ perception of time) by pointing them out in later chapters, or in the kid-oriented comics he’s reading.

    Thanks to my 9yo, I’ve also been reading more Dav Pilkey. The newest Dog Man book, “The Scarlet Shedder,” was an unexpectedly emotional and political read. It’s Dav Pilkey’s manifesto against AI, done in a clever and entertaining way for kids. It also tackles resilience through the hard parts of life. Considering the naive style, the extremely silly aesthetics, and general FUN of his books, I wasn’t expecting this one to slap me in the face. My 9yo got really emotional about reading it, too. Dav Pilkey is his favorite author. He has good taste!

    ~

    My mental health is in the trash can. I feel great when I’m doing specific stuff (being with my kids, focusing hard on something), but the zero spaces in between are filled with anxious chaotic noise. I wish I felt better.

  • sara reads the feed

    That’s not how immunity or calories work

    I started on a new charcoal illustration yesterday. Typically I’ve only done portraiture in charcoal; being able to do faces that look like human faces, much less resemble specific people, has been a major goal for basically my entire life. But I’ve finally gotten to a place where I feel my faces mostly look like faces in the way I hope. I want to try some higher-concept stuff.

    My approach is to find reference images, print them in b&w, and then cut+paste them together in a collage. From there, I draw the collage. Right now the one I’m working on is called “make it make sense,” a phrase that keeps coming to mind (for personal reasons I don’t feel like discussing). I’m shooting for a sorta symbolic/collage look even within the drawing, rather than attempting a realistic reproduction of a particular piece.

    One thing I find fascinating about working with charcoal in a technical, structured way is that it feels like watching a drawing come into focus. I start out with broad areas of light/dark and slowly render out details here and there. The very last thing I do is adding highlights, which invariably takes things from flat to popping out. I never get very rendered frankly — which is pretty common — but I hope my rendering will be more mature this time, I guess? I’ll definitely post it later.

    Also, as I mentioned yesterday, I’m trying out separating Sara Reads the Feed posts by content areas. Today we’re looking at medical/health-related news — you into it?

     

    Raw milk lovers want to drink bird flu

    Over the various SRF posts, I’ve especially been looking at bird flu. Anyone who hasn’t totally memory-holed the ongoing spread of COVID-19 is probably actively coping with horrible feelings from one pandemic; it’s fair to say that closely watching bird flu springs from my desire to be less surprised by another pandemic.

    I don’t really know how to explain people who are insisting on drinking raw milk (potentially infected with bird flu) hoping that it will inoculate them against it. (Gizmodo via Quartz) Apparently raw milk advocates think that the bird flu stuff is just fear-mongering. (Ars Technica)

    I guess it shows how bad health education is. It doesn’t feel community understanding of epidemiology improved dramatically in the wake of COVID — if anything, a new level of politicization may have made it worse.

    Incredibly, the surging popularity of raw milk seems to be directly related to the detection of bird flu in unpasteurized dairy products and a mistaken belief that being exposed to the virus will be beneficial to humans. […]

    Social media platforms like TikTok and Twitter have plenty of anti-science activists extolling the virtues of raw milk, and those influencers have seemed to only gain traction since bird flu was first detected in American dairy cows on March 25.

    My 13yo, who is interested in immunology, speculated that drinking pasteurized milk with dead bird flu virus particles might serve to give us some immunity. But these people are seeking to drink live virus. I don’t know if my 13yo’s guesses are on the mark, but it seems safe to say that drinking live virus is just how you end up with the virus.

    This is coming from the country where people really think that the MMR vaccine will give children autism, so I shouldn’t be surprised, and yet.

     

    Environmental drivers of rising disease rates

    It was only a couple days ago that I mentioned seeing more articles about biodiversity loss.

    NPR has a new article about “global change drivers,” specifically highlighting biodiversity.

    “We look for general patterns because if they hold true, they might apply to humans,” said Carlson. “Even if these are findings that apply to bats and rodents and primates, but not necessarily us, it’s still bad for us if bats and rodents are sicker, he says, in part because those diseases might jump to us.

    For all these species, biodiversity loss emerged as the biggest factor in increasing infectious disease risk, followed by the introduction of new species, climate change and, to a smaller extent, chemical pollution.

    Basically, the more rare & uncommon animals we have around, the better: diseases spread when they can easily access a lot of hosts.

    There’s some other surprising results in this article too.

    Surprisingly, habitat loss — which is a major cause of biodiversity decline — was associated with a decrease in infectious disease outcomes.

    The rapid pace of urbanization likely explains this counterintuitive result, Rohr says. When a grassland or forest is bulldozed for human development, most of the plants and animals are wiped out – along with their disease-causing parasites. Urban areas also tend to have better sanitation and access to health care, which could also account for the surprising result, too.

    Still, the lack of an effect of habitat loss is somewhat surprising, given scientists have drawn clear links between deforestation and increased risk of diseases like Ebola.

    They note that climate change plays the biggest role in zoonotic disease (sicknesses jumping from animals to humans), so all in all, it’s a really big nuanced picture.

     

    Early cancer detection through blood proteins

    One cool thing about the COVID-19 pandemic is that it accelerated research funding, and it feels like we’re seeing a lot of the benefits in cancer research. I keep coming across news about novel cancer treatments. On a more personal note, my pitbull got mast cell cancer a few months ago, and then a single injection cured it. They just stuck the tumor with a needle and filled it with some kind of injection and the whole thing fell off.

    Though King is a young dog, cancer is one of those things that becomes inevitable the longer an organism lives, thanks to the weirdo nature of cell division. So any advancements in this area are enormous for everyone.

    The Guardian talks about potentially being able to detect cancer seven years earlier by looking at blood proteins.

    The study, funded by Cancer Research UK and published in Nature Communications, also found 107 proteins associated with cancers diagnosed more than seven years after the patient’s blood sample was collected and 182 proteins that were strongly associated with a cancer diagnosis within three years.

    ​The authors concluded that some of these proteins could be used to detect cancer much earlier and potentially provide new treatment options, though further research was needed.​

    Early detection means more time to use these fancy new treatments, so let’s hope this research bears fruit!

     

    The oft-untold history of calorie counting

    I make no secret about my personal history with eating disorder. My long-time “favorite” method of weight control is calorie-focused. So I was really interested in this Smithsonian Mag article about the historic individuals who pioneered calorie counting as a thing.

    I’m going to nitpick the end of this long essay with my own experiences as sole citation, so take it with a grain of salt.

    What most disappoints me is how this article just ends up promoting the diet fad du jour (Ozempic et al).

    The vast majority of calorie-restricting diets have been shown to fail in the long run and in fact often result in a weight regain beyond the starting weight. Numerous studies over recent decades have shown that taking in calories and burning them (that is, eating and exercising) are not separate processes but are instead intimately related in a complex dance: Cutting calories triggers a cascade of hormonal reactions that increase hunger and fatigue while slowing metabolism, making it more difficult to lose weight. One research analysis in the journal Public Health Nutrition describes attempts to achieve and maintain a calorie deficit as “practically and biologically implausible.” New weight-loss drugs such as Ozempic appear to interrupt that cascade, by manipulating hormones in the gut and the brain to decrease appetite. […]

    The error in the “calories in-calories out” equation may boil down to this: Human bodies are not coal-burning machines, and food is not coal. Rather, the body and food are both vastly more complex, and they interact in complicated ways that have evolved in humans over eons.

    The research analysis linked doesn’t support the implications of the article overall. The idea that eating at a calorie deficit doesn’t lead to weight loss is simply a myth. It’s in denial of the law of thermodynamics.

    The work required to determine your calorie deficit and adhere to can be confusing, though.

    Yes, you will get hungrier if you need to eat more, but you will still lose weight if you maintain the deficit nonetheless. You will be able to eat fewer calories and remain at a deficit as you lose weight; adipose tissue takes calories to maintain, so you need to eat less at 150 lbs than at 220 lbs. Go ask your local anorexic for more details.

    Likewise, you will not gain weight from nowhere. It’s not magic. Food provides a certain amount of energy to the body (with calories as the measurement of energy), and your body uses a certain amount of energy; if you do not supply your body with excess energy, it cannot be stored as fat.

    Numerous factors inherent in foods affect how many calories are actually retained in the body, and whether those calories are stored as fat or, for instance, burned for energy or used to build tissue and muscle. Highly processed carbohydrates break down almost instantly in the body, prompting insulin release and fat storage; protein breaks down slowly and requires more energy to do so, essentially “using up” some of its calories just in digestion. Some foods, including certain types of nuts, have considerably fewer calories when measured in the body than they have in lab tests. And food when raw yields fewer calories in digestion than the same food cooked. These anomalies are just the tip of the iceberg.

    The amount of calories you absorb from food are already taken into account on nutrition labels. Differences from changes in preparation are minute, well within the margin of error.

    The macronutrient composition of calories (protein vs carbs vs fat) mostly changes the difficulty of eating at a caloric deficit: more fat and protein make it easier because you’re less hungry. Being more hungry doesn’t make your body hang onto calories, though.

    The fact is that most people are really bad at accurately logging how much you eat, and they generally overestimate how many calories are burned via activity. I treated myself like a science experiment in conjunction with internet strangers doing exactly the same thing for about fifteen years straight; all of us found that accurate counting completely works. It’s extremely predictable. It also requires a lot of rigor.

    If you just pad out your calorie counts a little (add 20-50 calories here or there), and if you don’t add extra calories for casual exercise (like the elliptical at the gym), AND if you reduce daily calories as you lose weight, it all works fine. Do you see why a lot of people fail at it, though? It’s like living a math problem. It appeals to the anxious and obsessive and disordered.

    Where calorie counting fails is how it creates unnatural behavior in humans. We are not machines who should weigh and log every bite. Eating behaviors are emotional, cultural, and social. Quantifying our food is bad for us.

    If you regain your weight after you stopped counting calories, it’s because you’re eating more. And your natural behaviors (like listening to your appetite) have been interrupted by these unnatural behaviors.

    The article concludes with a picture of an Ozempic box.

    Ozempic and similar drugs, first prescribed to regulate diabetes, have reshaped the debate around losing weight through will-power alone.

    The debate is mostly reshaped by advertising dollars to excess. There’s a lot of nauseating discourse around these expensive drugs as the cure for a problem, when you’re going to have the exact same issue with calorie counting: once you stop doing the thing (counting calories/taking the shots), you’ll regain the weight. Possibly with more, because you haven’t actually altered your behaviors in a meaningful way.

    When I was hospitalized for my eating disorder, we learned about eating mindfully. We were counseled on ways to reconnect with our appetites, eat to satiation, and feed ourselves when hungry. It was all behavioral. It came with therapy. That’s how you get healthy on an individual level. Disappointing to see Smithsonian Mag promoting Ozempic.

    On a tangential note: I think, in the future, we’re going to see how different neurotypes affect appetite dramatically (dopamine deprivation leads to more snacking, like with ADHD). We’re also going to see how limited time and money for food preparation (because the work environment is hostile) will make people eat more junk. We will see more and more how this is less a medical problem and more a social problem. Maybe. Can companies profit off of fixing society? No? Then maybe not.