• Diaries,  writing

    The Style Spectrum, and Why I’ve Put “The Liar’s Throne” on Hiatus

    I tend to think of my books spanning a spectrum of stylism. There are narratively simplistic books running on linear timelines (like Witch Hunt), a middle point of style balanced with clarity (like Atop the Trees, Beneath the Mountains), and then the rare all-style bonanza where style is substance (like Insomniac Cafe).

    When I’m planning a project, I consciously place my book on this spectrum. I consider myself restrained if I can write linearly, clearly, without theme overtaking plot. These are surface-level books where what happens is what matters the most, in a very intuitive way. These are usually more commercially appealing.

    The further along the spectrum I move in the other direction, the narrower its potential audience becomes. High style requires high engagement to intuit meaning.

    Whenever I’ve stayed on the safer end of the style spectrum, they have sold fairly well. Preternatural Affairs, led by Witch Hunt, became one of my most popular series. Writing them was frustrating sometimes. They didn’t scratch a particular creative itch.

    On the other hand, I had a fantastic time making Insomniac Cafe–which nearly nobody has read.

    I’ve rationalized writing the low-style books because I need books to pay bills, but at this point, I find it so difficult to reach readers that income isn’t much of a consideration. I need to enjoy the process of creating a book because that’s most of the good I’ll get from it now.

    I don’t feel the whim to go as far off the deep end as I did with Insomniac Cafe, so I thought I would try to write The Liar’s Throne on the low-style end of the spectrums. Events are unfolding in order. Mysteries may be held between the characters, but not between plot and reader. The focus is the plot rather than the themes.

    I’ve gotten quite far through the book writing like this–probably around sixty thousand words, although I haven’t typed up everything in my journals. Unfortunately, it’s also made me quite unhappy. I’m finding it difficult drag my feet through the back half.

    The other night, while I was meditating, I got a few ideas for livening up the format and jacking up the stylism. I’m going to use a lot of what I’ve already written. But it’s going to get remixed.

    Since this will demand major edits, I won’t be continuing to serialize The Liar’s Throne on Royal Road and AO3. I’ll leave what I already published for now. I’ve got plans for a book I can definitely serialize in its entirety, so I’ll have a replacement soon.

  • publishing,  writing

    make bad art.

    you really don’t need genAI. just draw a lot and accept that you’re gonna kinda suck at it.

    It’s so satisfying. You learn stuff. And it’s okay to be kinda sucky.

    i genuinely think, from talking to people who are using genAI, that it appeals to depthless insecurity. they have never felt Good Enough to Do the Art. “we’re different. you have talent,” they say, and also, “you have THE EYE,” unaware that talent is developed rather than innate.

    AI appeals to hustle culture, to the need to monetize everything. your art doesn’t start out commercially viable. genAI needs only a few words to produce something that looks way better than you think you can do. “i can’t afford to work at art for a year or two until i’m better,” you say, as if the ART is the pain point preventing you from making a living in this hellscape called reality. the AI looks like an easy escape route, but it’s pretending to solve problems by making things worse for artists. a year or two will pass whether or not you work on improving yourself. take the time.

    self-esteem, self-worth, and a willingness to practice something you suck at is so important. it is very, very hard. many of us have had our emotions invalidated throughout life. sometimes the people closest to us have said horrible things about us, and those voices linger.

    art asks a lot of you. it asks for honesty and insecurity and an ability to accept your limitations. but it gives you so much in return: a portfolio of accomplishments, a true expression of your internal state, the visualization of your voice.

    i tend to think i have a nuanced view of AI. i am strongly opposed to using it in professional products – that means book covers, the text in books, supplemental art, advertisements, audiobook generation, etc. i think using it for fun, like modding games or silly “how I look in Bridgerton” filters, is relatively benign despite the environmental impacts (personal impact is overrated compared to systemic responsibility). i think it’s simply bad at what it does when given the burden of creation (book cover components) while smaller tools like Adobe’s Content Aware Fill are just sensible developments to improve workflow.

    but on a purely human, emotional level, i wish i could plead with everyone to do something extremely radical and Just Make Sucky Art. I truly believe the world gets worse whenever we use AI and even your worst art makes the world better. i wish i could ask everyone to let themselves be vulnerable in whatever medium they like, even though it’s a HUGE request. i wanna ask everyone to waste their time dicking around with things that aren’t profitable or productive because i think it will heal you, and playing like a kid is important at every age, and it’s cheaper than buying credits to make yet another soulless Bratz doll romantasy character card.

  • A banner showing the cover for "Atop the Trees, Beneath the Mountains" by SM Reine. It's captioned "The One Ring is a cute guy. Villains fight over him."
    publishing

    Talking about my book with V.C. LLuxe

    cover for The Duke of Diamonds by VC LLuxeMy new fantasy book has been out for a couple weeks now, and my friend V.C. Lluxe was kind enough to read it and give me her feedback.

    I thought the conversation that unfolded was interesting. No surprise there: Like me, V.C. Lluxe has been a super-prolific author over the course of her career, and she has a well-developed sense of story. She’s an extremely cerebral person who isn’t afraid to color outside the lines in search of fundamental truths.

    With VC’s permission, I reposted a big chunk of our conversation, edited for length and coherency.

    Please note that this spoils a LOT of “Atop the Trees, Beneath the Mountains”, including critical character deaths. You should probably read the book first if you care about spoilers.

    I never care about spoilers, so it wouldn’t stop me, but that’s your choice.

    (If the article looks like it ends here, click “comment” to expand the post. I need to fix my website so this feature works properly. Thanks for your patience.)

  • sara reads the feed

    A couple quick links – Lower Decks, Chitty Chitty Bang Bang, and taking the knee

    I haven’t felt so seen and appreciated as a gay nerd as I did with this week’s Lower Decks. (Variety)

    First crossing paths when Andrew Robinson guest starred in the “Deep Space Nine” Season 1 episode “Past Prologue” back in 1993, the bright-eyed young Doctor and jaded “simple tailor” Garak first won fans over with their instant chemistry and easy banter, turning Robinson’s initial one-off role into a recurring character.

    “Trek” prides itself on “boldly going,” but the idea of an on-screen same-sex couple (a man and a lizard, no less) didn’t quite fly in the 1990s. Bashir and Garak never moved beyond close friends, even as fans clamored for a romantic storyline. […]

    Long after “DS9” went off the air, Robinson and Siddig continued to champion the Garak/Bashir relationship. That included campaigning for them at conventions in the ’90s to recording an audiobook and performing fan-written works over Zoom. As a result, the duo also had a hand in stoking interest in the relationship between their characters.

    This has been so long coming. I felt like time stopped when they showed their animated characters kissing. Kissing! Holding hands!

    Most importantly, they were written exactly like themselves: catty, arguing little bitches. We love them.

    TSFKA Tor dot com also has a good review.

    I’m complete.

    ~

    America looks quite a bit like an oligarchy from where I’m standing.

    Sam Altman joins Mark Zuckerberg and Jeff Bezos in donating $1 million to Trump’s inaugural fund (Quartz)

    You’ve heard the truism “follow the money” and it applies to all the goings-on in modern America. Whatever they do, no matter how obfuscated in identity politics, is ultimately about increasing profits for people who are already very wealthy.

    It’s upsetting, but it also is kinda like…it seems like there is functionally very simple solutions to this? There’s no political willpower for separating money from politics, but that’s “all” it would take. It would be simple but not easy, is what I’m saying.

    ~

    Apparently we’re getting a remake of Chitty Chitty Bang Bang, one of my favorite childhood movies. (Variety) Good luck trying to be halfway as creepy as the original.

    We’re also getting three more episodes of Malcolm in the Middle (tsfka Twitter), which I’m more optimistic about. I’m just excited to see Hal again.

    ~

    You know how the last few Cheerios like to cluster up in your bowl of cereal?

    Basically, the mass of the Cheerios is insufficient to break the milk’s surface tension. But it’s enough to put a tiny dent in the surface of the milk in the bowl, such that if two Cheerios are sufficiently close, the curved surface in the liquid (meniscus) will cause them to naturally drift toward each other. The “dents” merge and the “O”s clump together. Add another Cheerio into the mix, and it, too, will follow the curvature in the milk to drift toward its fellow “O”s.

    (Ars Technica)

    Well, scientists are looking at using this effect to move little robots around. I don’t know what it is about this that I find to be the cutest thing ever. But it’s the cutest thing ever.

  • sara reads the feed

    Back pain, the Last Universal Common Ancestor, and link spam

    Back pain is such a problem that the subreddit /r/backpain is one of the top 3% communities on Reddit. I could be a member; I’ve been suffering from severe sciatic pain ever since my first pregnancy almost fifteen years ago (!). Although it’s not as bad as the time I had a bulging disc, it’s consistent and virtually nothing helps. I’ve tried.

    It doesn’t surprise me that the CEO shooter known by some as The Adjuster may have been radicalized by his back pain. (Scientific American)

    Mangione was reportedly not taking any medication for his back pain. But he had posted in spondylolisthesis-related Reddit threads and talked on the site Goodreads about reading books on back pain, according to CNN. He told a friend in Honolulu, where he had been living the year before the shooting, that he needed back surgery. In the summer of 2023, his friend texted him to ask how the surgery went, and Mangione sent back x-ray scans of his spine. The friend told CNN that the images “looked heinous” and that he fell out of touch with Mangione after that.

    It’s not clear if or how Mangione’s back condition or surgery may have been connected to the UHC CEO’s shooting death on a street in Manhattan last week. When police arrested Mangione, he was reportedly carrying a handwritten manifesto that mentioned UHC and accused health insurance companies of “[abusing] our country for immense profit.”

    Reading about this is reminding me of how cold and judgmental the dude who worked on my back was. He was so smug that I gave myself a bulging disc by doing good mornings without a sufficiently strong posterior chain. It was so upsetting. Medicine in America is so upsetting.

    ~

    Some generally interesting scientific news without commentary:

    E-tattoos could make mobile EEGs a reality (Ars Technica)

    For Orcas, Dead Salmon Hats Are Back in Fashion (Scientific American)

    These Endangered Wolves Have a Sweet Tooth—and It Might Make Them Rare Carnivorous Pollinators (Smithsonian Mag)

    Living without mental imagery may shield against trauma’s impact (Psyche)

    ~

    I’m homeschooling my 14yo. Usually we’re doing age-appropriate math or reading literature, but sometimes I print off articles to share. This was the latest:

    All Life on Earth Today Descended From a Single Cell. Meet LUCA. (Quanta Magazine)

    LUCA does not represent the origin of life, the instance whereby some chemical alchemy snapped molecules into a form that allowed self-replication and all the mechanisms of evolution. Rather, it’s the moment when life as we know it took off. LUCA is the furthest point in evolutionary history that we can glimpse by working backward from what’s alive today. It’s the most recent ancestor shared by all modern life‚ our collective lineage traced back to a single ancient cellular population or organism.

    “It’s not the first cell, it’s not the first microbe, it’s not the first anything, really,” said Greg Fournier (opens a new tab), an evolutionary biologist at the Massachusetts Institute of Technology. “In a way, it is the end of the story of the origin of life.”

    The main takeaway we got from this article is that LUCA coexisted with viruses; LUCA needed to have a rudimentary immune system.

    I’ve been thinking a lot about LUCA since we read it. There were other cells around at the time that didn’t result in the life we know now. It makes me reflect on the different human species that no longer distinctively exist, like Neanderthal and the Denisovans.

    There are so many paths untaken throughout history, mostly by total happenstance.

    ~

    Some entertainment news without commentary~

    The Power of Positive Fandoms: A Reminder That Not Everything Is Terrible (tsfka Tor dot com)

    ‘Watson’ First Look Explores What Happens to the Sidekick After Sherlock Holmes’ Death (Variety)

    A Must-Read Sapphic Take on COUNT OF MONTE CRISTO (Bookriot)

    The queen of suspense: how Ann Radcliffe inspired Dickens and Austen – then got written out of the canon (The Guardian)

  • publishing

    A dark winter for publishing

    It’s been a rough week for publishing.

    Although sometimes it feels like everyone and their brother is in publishing, the truth is that it’s a small community. Most everyone knows most everyone else. Every loss is felt keenly.

    Lou Harper of Cover Affairs was a cover designer whose work appeared on thousands of novels. She was recently diagnosed with pancreatic cancer; after a short time in hospice, she passed away.

    An associate of Lou’s made a statement on Facebook.

    The news took a while to reach me, so this update is late, but I am sad to report Lou passed away early in the morning on November 19th after being in Hospice for only a few days. The cancer that started in her pancreas had effectively taken over her liver as well, and by the time she was diagnosed and met with an oncologist, the only thing they could really offer was to help manage her comfort.
There was lots of love and support in the days leading up to Lou’s passing, and the doctors did a reasonable job managing comfort. She did not suffer long, and that is a blessing.She worked with a lot of my friends, who praised her professionalism, kindness, and consistency. What a huge loss.

    ~

    We also lost MJ Rose, one of the founders of 1001 Dark Nights.

    From her Publisher’s Weekly obituary:

    Melisse Shapiro, also known as M.J. Rose, an early self-publishing advocate as well as bestselling author, died unexpectedly on December 10 while in Florida visiting her father. She was 71.

    […] Liz Berry remembered Rose best for being “innovative, and brave, and fierce, and an icon. She will be sorely missed.” Jillian Stein also said her partner will be missed. “M.J. was a force of nature both in the industry and out,” Stein said. “She was both bold and tender hearted and she was always happy to share her experiences and use what she’s learned in her long career to help anyone who asked. The amount of people she’s touched over the years is incredible.”

    ~

    Author Jana DeLeon also tragically, unexpectedly lost her husband this week.

    As posted publicly to her Facebook profile:

    Last month, my husband, Rene’, got an infection which turned into septic shock, and he had to spend 3.5 weeks in the hospital. They controlled the infection and stabilized everything that was off kilter due to it, and he was discharged to rehab on Saturday, which he was thrilled about. 
A couple of his good friends and I were with him while he ate dinner and joked and talked about cars. After that, we got him settled to rest then his friends left. He was exhausted from all the day’s activities, so I told him to take a nap while I ran home to feed our dogs and grab a few things for him then I’d be back. I’d barely gotten home, about twenty minutes later, and rehab called. I can’t believe I’m having to say this, but Rene’ passed away. The paramedics tried to revive him for about 20 minutes but couldn’t get a response. I have no idea what happened but I’m having a private autopsy to find out. 
I can’t begin to describe the devastation I feel. For 30 years, he was my best friend, partner, and biggest fan. We had big plans for another 30 more. 
Please pray for our families as we navigate an impossible time. 
JanaThere’s no real comfort to offer when such tragedy strikes, but I know that so many of us are thinking of her family.

    Again, publishing is such a small community. Losses like these hit so hard.

    Please keep everyone in your thoughts through these difficult times.

  • sara reads the feed

    Disease, raw eggs, and raw billionaire

    I’ve been watching *so* many movies lately, but I haven’t been writing longer reviews for them. I’ve been too busy doing the actual work required in fulfilling a Kickstarter, launching a new horror novel, and editing another book of mine…while trying not to burn out. That means aggressively allocating time to Normal Life as well as Work and Work-like Things. That means fewer reviews!

    Still, I am watching lots of new-to-me favorites! I loved the original Night of the Living Dead. Although it wasn’t as good as the first one, Scream 2 was a hoot that made me want to watch the rest of the franchise. And I can’t stop thinking about Rec!

    Also on my list of worky stuff: trying to get a TikTok account to the size that I can actually put links in my bio.

    ~

    There’s a new 4K restoration of Tarsem Singh’s The Fall that we need to watch. (The Film Stage)

    ~

    Apparently Cape fur seals have an outbreak of rabies. (AJE) This is kinda scary to read. The seals bit five people before they identified them as rabies-infected. Luckily, no humans contracted rabies from the bites, but still.

    The interaction between diseases in animals and diseases in humans is generally scary. Smithsonian Mag notes that infant mortality is higher in places where bats have white nose syndrome.

    Also, someone caught H5-type bird flu without animal contact in Missouri. (Ars Technica) Bird flu has reached California dairies. (Ars Technica)

    And salmonella has been found in some eggs (NPR), but not in Nevada, so I’m still eating raw cookie dough.

    ~

    A study suggests that vaping screws up your lungs just as much as smoking. (The Guardian)

    As a piece of total anecdata, I definitely found this was true for me. Sometimes vaping was way worse for my lungs. Kinda depends on the vape.

    ~

    “Can You Feel the Love Tonight?” almost stayed on the cutting room floor of the Lion King. (Variety) It’s bananas to consider we almost didn’t have the sequence with the horny lioness gaze.

    Other strange cinema history: The sexy piano scene with Julia Roberts and Richard Gere in Pretty Woman was improvised. (Vanity Fair)

    ~

    Selena Gomez is a billionaire so we gotta eat her too. (Variety)

    ~

    We might as well note that The Graveyard Book has been delayed (Variety) because of allegations against Neil Gaiman because I predict there will actually be no long-term consequences for his predatory behavior.

    ~

    Bad news for publishing. Apple Books has had one of the best teams in the industry, but Apple failed to recognize it and laid off a bunch of staff. (Ars Technica)