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    Rory’s 2023: Video games

    I don’t track my video games super closely, but I’m playing them a ton, so here’s some quick notes cobbled from memory and my Steam Year in Review!

    Non-Steam highlights

    1. Fortnite Battle Royale (and one random Creative level I spammed for XP): I gave up on the game right before they did a reboot, but it’s impossible to talk about me gaming in 2023 and not bring it up. I loved playing with a squad and the battle pass system, if not the microtransactions baked into the whole thing.

    2. FTL and Into the Breach: I got these through free Epic Games claims years ago and clicked with them in 2023. (I then bought them in Steam so I could do the achievements there, and so I could throw Subset Games a couple bucks.) FTL is a great game, but a bit outside of my comfort/skill level? Into the Breach is way more playable.

    3. Starfield: I played this through Xbox…or I tried, anyway. I gave it about twenty hours of fighting glitches and general problems before giving up. Maybe I’ll try it again in five years, after the modding community’s had some real time with it.

    4. Vampire Survivors: I’ve never not had a big year with Vampire Survivors since it came out, but I got it on Switch for the first time in 2023 and got to play co-op with family members! In regards to the Steam version, I also got the Among Us DLC at the end of the year and was somewhat underwhelmed…for Vampire Survivors, which meant I still liked it better than most existing games.

    5. Storyteller: Did you know that Netflix has app games on mobile? I’m not sure I recommend it because a lot of the games are available through other means, but I got to play Storyteller for the first time through there, and it’s a great play with a touchscreen. And it’s quick! If you have a quiet weekend and don’t know what to do with it, Storyteller’s a great choice for simple puzzles in a fairy-tale style.

    6. The Sims 4: I wish I could quit this expensive, buggy mess. Alas, I love it. Growing Together was a great release, I liked the new lot type in For Rent, and I’ve used build items in Horse Ranch basically since day one. Maybe one day, I’ll finish a 100 baby challenge, but 2023 was not that year.

    Steam highlights

    1. Cookie Clicker: I went on an achievement-hunting tear in the later part of 2023, and I’m sure I’ll be picking up a couple throughout 2024 as well. 505 achievements earned in 2023 while only playing Oct-Dec!

    2. Super Life RPG: I got completely blindsided by this one. It ate my life Feb-Apr until I forced myself to stop playing.

    3. Star Wars Jedi Survivor: Made Starfield look downright functional, but I loved the story and love the characters, so I don’t regret playing it. I do regret paying day-one prices for it. I might go back later and see if it plays any better; it would be fun to hunt achievements.

    4. Oxenfree II: Lost Signals: The ambiance of this series is unmatched. I think I liked the first game better, and I wish I’d known going in that there were multiple possible endings, but it was overall a worthwhile sequel to a very good game.

    5. Payday 2: A deeply silly game of cops and robbers where you play as the robbers. The over-the-top slapsticky quality, combined with a generously low easy mode, is the real winner here. Definitely not free of stereotypes and bigotry, but it’s nowhere near the level of, say, a Grand Theft Auto. (I also tried Payday 3 through Xbox, which was serious and harder. No thanks.)

    6. Don’t Scream: I watched a Let’s Play of this and bought it nearly instantly; the realistic found-footage look is fantastic. This is still definitely an early-access game, though—I didn’t get a lot of the scares that the Let’s Play had—and it seems like the development is going to get bigger going forward. I’ll definitely be revisiting it in Halloween season this year.

    7. Graveyard Keeper: A cozy-style game with a darker aesthetic. Think Stardew Valley with graves. I found the learning curve very steep, but I will definitely be jumping in again when I get the cozy-game itch (and if I’m not playing Stardew Valley or this year’s early winners, Coral Island and Immortal Life).

    8. Baldur’s Gate 3: I feel like the toe I dipped in here in December was a prologue for gaming in 2024. I played some twenty hours, much of it co-op, and felt like I barely scratched the surface of a behemoth. My deepest wish for 2024 is to get a quiet week and just dive in. Maybe late winter!

    Steam stats (from Jan 1 through Dec 14)

    -40 games played, 769 achievements earned
    -New releases got 15% playtime, games over 8 years old got 19% playtime, games 1-7 years old got 66% playtime
    -November was my busiest month, with 32% of my gameplay for the year
    -I played 12% of the time with a controller

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    Rory’s 2023: Books

    Like with film, all my book tracking goes in one place (follow me on Storygraph!). Unlike with film, I don’t do a lot of reading specific to the release year, so this is a general look back at the books released in any year I read during 2023. But I think my stats got messed up somewhere; despite doing the large majority of my reading digitally, print seems to have won the pie chart, and apparently I read 6000 pages in June? Either way, there are some general trends to coax out.

    General stats

    1. First book finished in 2023 was a reread of Anne Rice’s The Witching Hour. Last book finished was a first read of Lee Lai’s wonderful graphic novel Stone Fruit.

    2. My biggest genre of the year was LGBTQIA+, aided largely by access through Libby to Queer Liberation Library, although my local library has some decent offerings in that direction as well. My second biggest genre was graphic novels. I’m sure the overlap between the two genres was not small.

    If I wanted to give a quick genre overview, I would go with queer, graphic novel, SFFH, memoir, pop culture. Most of my reads in 2023 are two or more of these put together. I think YA and middle grade also show up a lot in my reads, but that’s less personal preference and more because queer lit and graphic novels (and both put together) tend to have a lot of overlap within those age ranges.

    3. My most-read author of the year was Alice Oseman, with nine books. I believe that’s five Heartstopper volumes and four stand-alone novels (Loveless, Radio Silence, I Was Born For This, and Nick and Charlie).

    4. There’s a pie chart to reflect the moods of the stories I read, which is fun to see, but three moods take up about half the chart: emotional, reflective, and lighthearted. 2023 was a transitional year, after a couple years doing the large share of my reading through audiobooks. Going with a lighter mood and reading a lot of graphic novels makes sense in this context.

    This also extends to pace, which is largely medium (49%) and fast (42%), and page number, where books fewer than 300 pages (64%) won the day.

    5. I largely read fiction in 2023 at 76%.

    Honorable mentions

    -I Think Our Son is Gay 1-4: A manga series from the point of view of a mother watching her eldest son on a journey of self-discovery in his high-school years. It’s such a kind series, both for the son and his mother, and highlights one of elements of being an adult that I find joy in: watching younger people’s specific journey through life.

    -It Came From the Closet: Queer Reflections on Horror: Great anthology of essays tying lived queer experience to horror movies. For better or worse, horror is often better at reflecting marginalized experience than other genres, and even when I hadn’t seen the movie in question, I resonated with a lot of the essays here. (Definitely look up content warnings if this sounds good, though.)

    -Hi Honey, I’m Homo!: Matt Baume’s excellent look at US queer rights through mainstream Hollywood sitcoms. If you’re a member of my Patreon, you can see a list of Baume’s video essays you can watch without the book here, but I recommend his YouTube channel as a whole.

    -Pregnant Butch: Nine Long Months Spent in Drag: This comic’s look at pregnancy, queerness, and gender feels like a window into queerness of the past in so many ways, and a massively useful one.

    -Taste: My Life Through Food: This was a good year for me and celebrity memoir, to the point where this would have probably made the top ten in another year. Stanley Tucci painted a lovely picture of the stages of his life through food (or the lack thereof; he had mouth cancer that limited his ability to eat at the end of the narrative). Definitely one to listen to in audiobook form.

    -Pageboy: Another celebrity memoir (from Elliot Page) that would have made it to the top ten in a different year. If you’ve ever wondered what gender dysphoria is like, read this.

    -Where Are Your Boys Tonight?: The Oral History of Emo’s Mainstream: I’ve been a longtime fan of My Chemical Romance, and I’ve made friends with a lot of people by piecing together stories of the band through video and magazine interviews. This book filled in a lot of holes for them (and other bands of interest) while ignoring other spots in favor of dry business analysis. Didn’t super enjoy those last bits, but still, very useful to me personally.

    -The Magic Fish: Trung Le Nguyen’s graphic novel blended fairy-tale elements and reality beautifully. I’m putting the book on my to-buy list because I loved the art so much!

    -Normal People: I read this so I could watch the miniseries that went along with it…and I never got to the miniseries because I kept thinking about how much I liked the book. Note to self: look up more contemporary Irish lit.

    Top ten

    10. Stone Fruit by Lee Lai: As mentioned above, this was my last book of the year, and it was wonderful. Beautiful ink-wash look; resonant story about when to stay connected to family despite messiness and when to disconnect. I love the metaphoric imagery of letting loose when you’re with your young relatives.

    9. Loveless by Alice Oseman: Good coming-of-age story featuring a character discovering her aromantic and asexual identities, and how your friends can be the primary focus in your life. The UK university setting made the story feel more alive to me.

    8. The Woman in Me by Britney Spears: Kudos to a celebrity and their ghostwriter for writing a harrowing memoir with gothic elements (part one). The language in this was simple, and the narrative moved briskly, which is exactly what something this dark needed. I’ve followed Britney’s life and career somewhat, and I was still surprised by some of what happened in this.

    7. Spare by Prince Harry: Kudos to a celebrity and their ghostwriter for writing a harrowing memoir with gothic elements (part two). I rec the ghostwriter’s perspective on cowriting the memoir and the aftermath, too. Claustrophobic read; I can only imagine how much more claustrophobic the reality was (and still is).

    6. Babel by R.F. Kuang: It seems to be a bit of a trend right now to set fantasy in real-life Western universities (I have Leigh Bardugo’s Hell Bent on my to-read list, after failing to read it while I had it checked out in January). Babel’s historical fantasy is set in Oxford and uses translation magic as metaphor for the abuses of white imperialism. Big tear-it-all-down mood.

    5. Burn it Down by Maureen Ryan: Read this toward the beginning of the WGA strike in the summer, and it was a perfect time to do it. While Burn It down covers a lot of the toxicity in Hollywood from multiple direction, it had a heavy focus on TV writers’ rooms. Even though both the WGA and SAG-AFTRA strikes have ended, we’re gonna feel their impacts on media for the next couple years, so I rec this book for a perspective on why things need a shake-up.

    4. Crying in H Mart by Michelle Zauner: Intense memoir about culture, food, and the death of a parent. I cried buckets over it, as I will cry at the movie adaptation that is in development if it gets made. This is also a celebrity memoir, as Michelle Zauner is part of Japanese Breakfast, but it’s very different in tone from the other two on the list.

    3. Dark Heir by C.S. Pacat: I read both books in the series (so far) this year, and I’m still not sure if I liked the first one, which felt more like a setup for its ending than a story on its own. I have no such reservations about Dark Heir, which I read in a four-hour burst. Its use of reincarnation and magic in existing systems as metaphor for generational trauma is fantastic.

    2. Madly, Deeply: The Diaries of Alan Rickman by Alan Rickman: As someone who has a hard time journaling consistently, saying “this book got me to journal for months in 2023” sums up my experience reading it. A good look at an actor I admire obviously trying to work through life and better himself, without shrinking away from his flaws. My only regret is that this was published posthumously because it means he couldn’t read the audiobook. I did listen to the audiobook, though, and the narrator does a good job with a dry British tone, even if it isn’t the specific Alan Rickman flavor.

    1. This is How You Lose the Time War by Amal El-Mohtar and Max Gladstone: The summary is relatively straightforward – epistolary time-travel novella with agents on two opposing sides falling in love. But the experience of reading (or listening, as I did, which I do rec) is rich and complex while still being extremely familiar. Thanks, Bigolas Dickolas Wolfwood!

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    Rory’s 2023: TV

    TV and YouTube-esque video are the only media where I don’t get auto-generated stats about my year. (I still don’t have a great way to track YouTube watching, so I’m not recapping 2023.) But I did track TV via Notion in 2023, to somewhat messy results. I’m not happy with it. Unfortunately, I have no better ideas on how to track it right now, so I’ll probably do the same for 2024 (unless Letterboxd actually launches TV tracking and I don’t hate it).

    Still, messy or not, I can talk broadly about the shows I watched.

    Old rewatches

    -Community: It’s hard to be Very Online at my age and not have seen at least some Community. During my early-2023 winter slump, watching in full was a good way to pass the time. It’s not an uncomplicated watch—many of the jokes and stances haven’t aged well, and there’s a whole lot of behind-the-scenes goings-on that I can’t begin to watch—but Troy and Abed are two of my all-time favorite TV characters.

    -The Untamed: I started 2024 with a rewatch of this, too! Wonder who I have to bother to get a US physical release of this show so I can stop worrying about it disappearing forever. I think this is the only comfort rewatch TV I have at the moment, and I’m happy to have it.

    -Big Love: I watched Big Love in full as it aired and remembered loving the ending, so I wanted to see how it held up on a rewatch. (Answer: I still like it, but the last season is largely silly and undermines it.) It’s fascinating how the show’s fiction is built around the myths of Mormon polygamy just as much as some of the realities; watching Sister Wives and looking up analysis of that has taught me a lot in that regard.

    (Yes, I also watched Sister Wives and Shiny Happy People this year, but I’m largely refraining from commentary because TLC is completely morally bankrupt, and I would have to do a lot of grounding in greater context to feel like I’m even beginning to do that justice. I rec Shiny Happy People if you can handle it, though; look up trigger warnings first.)

    -Interview with the Vampire s1: I made a point of rewatching when they had the episodes up on (HBO) Max temporarily. A quick marathon was nice after doing a week-to-week first watch. It worked great both ways! I wish there were more episodes, but the writers filled the time beautifully. Makes me regret how dull I found Mayfair Witches (but then, I’ve always been more into Vampire Chronicles).

    Shows that finished in 2023

    -Succession: A show that rushed its ending, but they were far from the only HBO show to have that problem in 2023. (I suspect the looming strike was also a factor.) Endings are hard, but even with everything, I found Succession’s last season satisfying and emotionally devastating in parts. I’m extremely pleased that this was the Sarah Snook-Kieran Culkin award season. My faves!

    -Scott Pilgrim Takes Off: I never fully clicked with Scott Pilgrim vs. the World, but Scott Pilgrim Takes Off was a fascinating revisit with a lot of the same people. In this case, age came with evolved perspectives on people and relationships. I like art that recognizes that we can grow and be kinder over time!

    -The Crown: This was a comfort show for me in the first couple seasons, so seeing its writing degrade over time was a real bummer. (Nothing in the show topped 2×06.) I don’t regret watching the rest because I liked the production design and some of the casting. Plus, I felt like they were circling a monarchy-is-dying message in the finale that was interesting. But ultimately, it was a lot of unchecked bigotry and unchallenged regurgitation of palace narratives.

    -Schmigadoon!: One of two shows I moved from my “may have more seasons” to “finished” column before I started writing this. It’s a shame because there was a lot of talent and fun here, but I’d be lying if I said season two didn’t capture me like season one did. Maybe it’s better that Apple canceled it before it became Ted Lasso? Still, disappointing to lose an outlet as an agoraphobic musical-theater kid.

    -Our Flag Means Death: Here’s the second show I moved to “finished”. The trajectory this show took in my life is fascinating. I went from elated and telling everyone I knew about it as season one aired, to cooling on the show while waiting for season two, to sad while watching season two. It definitely didn’t deserve the obvious shoestring budget it was working off, and I loved all the ensemble. Here’s hoping I can watch Vico Ortiz in something else soon.

    Continuing shows

    -Heartstopper: I might not have a lot of comfort TV shows, but Heartstopper is one of my comfort comics, and I love its TV adaptation deeply. Season two was even better than season one for me, although I watched both back-to-back and had a great time. I’m so glad season three’s in progress.

    -Good Omens: I love the Good Omens book, but I haven’t quite clicked with the show in the same way. S1 wasn’t a bad adaptation of the book, but it still missed something for me? And then s2 was forging its own path and worked even less. (This might have been because I didn’t get to watching the new episodes right away, and the online hype grew too big.) I’ll still watch the last season, whenever that happens.

    -What We Do In The Shadows: Guillermo! It’s hard to keep a show fresh for multiple seasons, but I’ve loved Guillermo’s journey the whole way through. I think 2024’s going to have the show’s last season, and while I’m sad, I do think it makes sense and doesn’t feel overly rushed. Maybe this will be a comfort rewatch show when I have all of it. (Fingers crossed they don’t blow the landing.)

    -Wheel of Time: I love this show despite myself? Some of it is that I imprinted on the book series as a young teen and seeing some parts onscreen will never not be a thrill. But there are several arcs that dragged, and several things that were iffy in the books and felt worse onscreen (sul’dam/damane, anyone?). All that said, I still felt a huge rush of joy watching the finale. Sometimes, you just wanna see the ride, even if it’s flawed. (It helps that the Forsaken are fantastic so far!)

    Star Trek

    This gets its own section!

    -Lower Decks: I think Lower Decks is as good as any show can be in its fourth season. Which is really good, but definitely showing a little wear? I thought the Mariner arc was fun, and there were some highlights this season that were as good as any of the best episodes in other seasons, but they’re in a place where they kind of had to promote everyone, and that moves it away from some of the ensemble charm and core lower-decks identity that’s always been my favorite part. That’s pretty nitpicky on my part, though. I still enjoy every episode more than basically any other show on TV.

    -Strange New Worlds: High highs and low lows. Lower Decks does a good job at channeling the 90s era Treks, and SNW does a decent job at translating classic Trek into the 2020s. I wish I could jettison the post-Enterprise grossness around military and ethics, and I wish it was remotely queer. Still, I definitely have fun most of the time. They had body swap! A musical episode! Red-shirt and time-travel shenanigans! I just wish it didn’t also have “eugenics is good actually” and “M’Benga can just kill whoever he wants”? But unevenness is also in line with original Trek, so…good job, I guess?

    -Lower Decks on Strange New Worlds: SO GOOD. I can’t believe how well they translated animated comedy characters into a live-action show! Boimler and Spock blowing things up together was so fun, and I loved Mariner bonding with the crew. Possibly one of my all-time favorite episodes of Trek?

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    Rory’s 2023: Music

    A sonic recap of 2023! I split my time between Apple Music, Spotify, and YouTube, and because I don’t have my YouTube history turned on, this is more a general glance at 2023 musical highlights than an complete reflection of all my stats. (I did work mostly from Spotify Wrapped and Apple Music Replay, though.)

    Note: Some artists, albums, and/or songs have special capitalization, spacing, or other flourishes that I ignored, mostly because I’d never post if I tried to get them all right. Sorry about that. I tried to get spellings, accents, pronouns, and all things most reflective of identity correct, though; let me know if I missed anything.

    General favorites

    1. Unreal Unearth by Hozier: My favorite new album of the year! I saw Hozier tour Wasteland, Baby! in 2019 because I really clicked with him in that era (and also because he played in town and that basically never happens for musicians I like, heh). Unreal Unearth specifically has a great combination of grand songs and smaller songs, although my favorites tend toward the former: “Eat Your Young”, “First Light”, “Who We Are”, and “Abstract (Psychopomp)”. “Eat Your Young” had one of my favorite music videos of the year, too.

    2. Woodkid: There’s a lot of songs to which I listened that I couldn’t name or even sing along with because I often spend time with Sara while she plays music videos. Luckily, when Woodkid appeared, I knew him already, both from an Assassin’s Creed Revelations trailer that’s basically forever imprinted on my brain and because “Run Boy Run” was everywhere around the same time. In 2023, I think the specific video that Sara had been watching was “Goliath”, but it also could have been “I Love You”. Either way, I dove in and realized that the singles from The Golden Age had connected videos (I love a consistent concept!) and also that the video for “Reactor” was weird and great. Then I made a playlist (which also included “Guns For Hire”, my top Woodkid song of the year), and the rest is history.

    Warning if you go to any of the Woodkid videos: a lot of people talk about processing personal grief in his comment section. (I have a theory some of this is AI because I’ve been seeing this kind of trend in more places, but that’s a whole other topic.)

    3. Calm albums: I’m far from the only person whose playlists reflect necessity nearly as much as my tastes. I have a section for when I need to amp up (with specific ones for work and exercise), cool down (stress, sleep), seasonal purposes (mostly Halloween), and “I need to express whatever feelings are stuck” (this is largely why Hozier and Woodkid were so big this year). As far as new albums go, Andre 3000’s flute album New Blue Sun was an immediate hit for me when I felt like I was at my limit. Massive Attack’s Mezzanine is a long-established classic for this use, too. No particular songs are standouts for me; go listen to the entirety of both, if that sounds interesting.

    4. K-Pop, featuring Ateez and Blackpink: I could point to a lot that happened in 2023 to change my idol K-Pop stance from “listen to a couple songs here and there but try to stay out of it otherwise” to “use basic curiosity to get more cultural context for the industry in Korea”, but one of the most obvious was Blackpink’s performance at Coachella. I try a lot of different music at Coachella, but they were the only ones to make a real presence on my top lists this year.

    Still, the real story was me randomly clicking with Ateez in December this year; they made enough of an impact at the last second that four of my top ten on Apple Music are Ateez songs, and even if I stopped listening this second, they would also probably have a notable presence on my 2024 playlist. It’s funny because I’m less into the songs themselves than I am their dancing and concept—one reason I’ve never done more than like a K-Pop song here and there is because most acts don’t fit my tastes sonically—but their songs are exactly the energy I need to get me through a shower.

    (Remember my amp-up playlists? Blackpink was my a big part of that playlist for spring-fall; Ateez took over in winter.)

    After I wrote the bulk of this post, but before I posted it, the 2024 Coachella lineup was announced, and Ateez is on it! Nice full-circle moment.

    Top Blackpink songs of the year include “How You Like That”, “Kill This Love”, and “Pink Venom”.

    Top Ateez songs of the year include “Guerilla”, “Bouncy (K-Hot Chilli Peppers)”, “Halazia”, “Wonderland”, and “Deja Vu”.

    5. Olivia Rodrigo: One of the nice things about getting older is that the trends of your youth tend to cycle back in a new (and often better) way. Olivia Rodrigo has a punk edge to her pop, and I love it. Her new album Guts had a lot of smart writing, and “Vampire” immediately made it onto my Halloween playlist because it’s exactly the kind of thing I want for it (either I want vibes or specific monster metaphors, and this has the latter). Top songs include “Vampire”, “Bad Idea Right?”, “Brutal”, and “All-American Bitch”.

    6. Janelle Monáe: One of my all-time favorites always! I saw them* opening for Bruno Mars when The Archandroid was her biggest release, and I saw them headline Dirty Computer when she was touring that album. I tend to prefer her more science-fiction vibes, but 2023’s The Age of Pleasure was perfectly sexy and queer. I could pick out a couple favorites from the album, but it’s short and feels like it’s meant to be listened to poolside, so just go listen to the entirety of The Age of Pleasure and bask in those summer vibes. (*More about her pronouns. I alternated usage here.)

    7. TikTok songs: One of the best ways to find new music these days is through TikTok, but trends will often bring back old favorites or older songs I missed, too! I keep a running playlist of all the songs that have been on there that stick out to me. Some of the top ones that appeared this year include “Kill Bill (Sped Up Version)” by SZA, “Back on 74” by Jungle, “Church” by T-Pain, “Make Your Own Kind of Music” by Cass Elliot, “Angeleyes” by ABBA, “Le Monde (from Talk To Me)” by Richard Carter.

    8. Evergreen rock favorites: Paramore and Fall Out Boy had new albums in 2023, and my playlists reflect these events accordingly, if not in the ways you’d think. Paramore is largely a singles band for me, so I added “This is Why” to my general Paramore playlist instead of really latching onto the album. I liked the new Fall Out Boy album as well, but it mostly reminded me how much more I liked Mania (I am one of possibly two fans who thinks this) and relistened to that a lot too.

    Top Paramore songs of the year include “All I Wanted”, “Misery Business”, “Ain’t It Fun”, “Still Into You”, “This is Why”, “Hard Times”, and “crushcrushcrush”.

    Top Fall Out Boy songs of the year on my lists include “Love From The Other Side”, “Heartbreak Feels So Good”, “Young and Menace”, “G.I.N.A.S.F.S.”, and also basically all of Folie à Deux. I think I listened to Mania mostly on YouTube, so exact stats are missing, but I listened a lot.

    Single song favorites

    1. “Bongos” by Cardi B and Megan Thee Stallion: Kicked off my amp-up playlist for a large chunk of the second half of the year. Between this and the classic “WAP”, I could listen to these two make music forever.

    2. “What Was I Made For?” by Billie Eilish: I was generally unimpressed by the Barbie movie and its larger musical contributions. I was even lukewarm on this song when I first heard it. But I saw the movie, and “What Was I Made For?” was the only thing that clicked for me. Highly rec the song and this Vanity Fair video where Billie Eilish and Finneas talk about writing it.

    3. “Keep Us Connected” from the Star Trek: Strange New Worlds musical episode: I was initially really into the SNW musical…for about a week, before I realized how much work it needed to fully work as a musical and as an episode. Still, “Keep Us Connected” is a beautiful song and Celia Rose Gooding kills it. It’s out of my range, but I try to caterwaul along regardless.

    4. “Hayloft II” by Mother Mother: I love the idea of a song sequel. In “Hayloft” (Nickel Creek’s bluegrass cover is my definitive version), a man discovers his daughter sleeping with a man in the hayloft and threatens him with a gun. In “Hayloft II”, the lover is dead and the daughter’s coming for revenge. Doing the bluegrass cover and then the rock sequel also gives things a sonic change in perspective, as well as lyrical. Killer.

    5. “3005” by Childish Gambino: Another being-in-Sara’s-orbit track. We spent the beginning of 2023 watching Community together, so a transition into Childish Gambino made sense, and “3005” is an interesting take on friendship and aging that’s also catchy as heck.

    6. “Black Sheep” by Brie Larson: I had a couple minor Scott Pilgrim moments throughout the course of the year, and I believe 2023 was the first time this specific cover of Metric’s song made it to Spotify. Either way, a bop.

    7. “Pulaski at Night” by Andrew Bird: This song, on a fanvid for the TV show The Bear, inspired me to make a playlist specifically of songs I like from fanvids. Big Chicago vibes.

    8. “All the Way to Reno (You’re Gonna Be a Star)” by R.E.M.: A couple years ago, “Everybody Hurts” was not only my biggest R.E.M. song of the year, but my biggest song of the year period. That “All the Way to Reno” won the first but not the second is a positive sign for my state of mind, I think.

    9. “Grapevine Fires” by Death Cab for Cutie: This is an old favorite that comes back into rotation regularly, often when it’s a bad year for wildfires and smoke. 2023 wasn’t bad in my geographic area, thankfully, but this is also just a good song.

    10. “The Loneliest Time” (feat. Rufus Wainwright) by Carly Rae Jepsen: Do I need to explain that Carly Rae Jepsen makes bops? Probably not. Rufus Wainwright was a big artist for my early 20s, so the combination was really good for me.

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    Rory’s 2023: Movies (part one)

    Welcome to the beginning of my 2023 recaps! In the past, I’ve done these posts on my Patreon, but I’ve shifted focus over there to behind-the-scenes looks at process, and you’re getting more of what I posted on there on here, for free. If you like what you see here, subscribe to my Patreon and get older versions!

    This post isn’t my main movie wrap-up; I’ll do a more-specific 2023 movie post before the Oscars ceremony, in early March. (The ceremony this year is March 10th.) I find it easier to keep up with a year’s particular film offerings than I do any other medium, but I don’t have easy access to a movie theater, and the closest one mostly has the big-budget productions even if I could go. (2023 was my biggest year at the theater since 2020; I saw two! Two whole movies!) In particular, having access to likely Oscar contenders can take a while, since so many deliberately release at the tail end of December.

    Still, there’s some stuff my main 2023-in-film post won’t catch (like the new-to-me movies that released before 2023), and it makes sense to have something closer to the bulk of my other posts, so here’s a interim look back at 2023 in film, largely tied to Letterboxd because I had a great time on there this year. Go follow me. (Hashtag not sponsored.)


    1. My favorite recap of the year dropped January 8th! David Ehrlich’s 25 Best Films of 2023: A Video Countdown. This year’s was super funny at the start and left me completely devastated at the end. I couldn’t tell you for sure if the full emotional journey works if you don’t know the basic conceit of the big movies of the year, but I think it does? Either way, I do think some of the jokes will land, and the physical movement of the video and the energy with it is always worth a look. (Don’t be like me and look at the Letterboxd list in advance, but make sure to check it out after if you want to populate your watchlist.)

    And very important: Usually, David Ehrlich gets in contact with the director of the number-one film and does a fundraiser off a charity they pick. This year, he picked the charity: Palestine Children’s Relief Fund.

    2. Letterboxd’s greater social media presence has been a lot of fun lately! I was going to put this in a greater linkspam, but let’s do it here: a TikTok where they ask where people like to sit in theaters. It’s so granular, but everyone who sees movies has an opinion on this (even if their opinion is “no opinion”), and I’m sure people who make films care more than most. The right seat in the right theater with the right movie? I’m sure more than one career started from that moment.

    In a bigger way, Letterboxd’s full 2023 year in review is worth a look. The page design is fun, and it’s a different slice of film lovers weighing in than you get with things like the Oscars. Plus, their system of likes and star ratings means you can look at things with more nuance than just binary best and worst. If that doesn’t sound interesting, you can spend a minute and a half watching a dance montage they commissioned.

    3. I don’t subscribe to Letterboxd and get full access to stats, but I got a mini 2023 recap! Here are some interesting notes:

    a) I thought Ayo Edibiri was going to be most-watched actor of the year: I watched Bottoms, Theater Camp, and Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles: Mutant Mayhem this year. Certainly, Ayo Edibiri was my 2023 favorite (and her Letterboxd is also great, fingers crossed reporters stop being weird about it and she doesn’t delete). But my actual most-watched actor was Kristen Stewart because I rewatched the Twilight series this year, and I did a first-time watch of Underwater. I probably don’t need to tell you this, but if you haven’t seen any of them, skip Twilight and watch Underwater. (I also watched Kristen Stewart at the beginning of this year in Certain Women, which is another rec.)

    b) Most-watched director was Jordan Peele! I like his movies more with each rewatch. Nope is still my favorite.

    c) Most-watched week of 2023 was the week of June 26-July 2, which reflects a lot of my Pride Month watches. I watched thirteen films that week! I thought the last week of 2023 would have won out, but that was only eight.

    d) The day of the week I watched movies the most was Fridays, which pleased me. (One of my 2023 resolutions was to do a Friday movie night. It worked!) Sundays were my lowest, which makes sense because I do a lot on Sundays, and my second lowest was Thursday, which also makes sense if I knew I was going to watch movies on Fridays. I was a bit surprised that Tuesdays were second place, but I suppose something had to be!

    e) 50th movie of the year was a rewatch of Moon, 100th movie of the year was a rewatch of The Invitation, and 150th movie of the year was a first watch of Polite Society. All great watches, although I would caution everyone that Kevin Spacey does voice work in Moon, if you think that might be a problem for you.

    f) Most-watched theme: Bloody vampire horror. No one is remotely surprised. (This wasn’t even like 2022, when I did specially themed my Halloween watches around vampires!)

    g) Most-watched nanogenre: Delightful, chemistry, adorable. I love a good romcom, what can I say?

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    Rory’s links #2: A darker side of the moon

    Cloudy, dark day today. The Northern Hemisphere decrease in sunlight this time of year is really punishing; no wonder there are a few festivals featuring lights around now. I just wish we pushed it into January and February.


    Links

    1. World’s richest 1% pollute more than the poorest two-thirds, Oxfam says: It’s impossible to talk about climate change without talking about wealth inequality and labor exploitation:

    “The super-rich are plundering and polluting the planet to the point of destruction, leaving humanity choking on extreme heat, floods and drought,” Oxfam International’s interim executive director, Amitabh Behar, said in a news release on Monday. He called for world leaders to “end the era of extreme wealth.”

    If you want a specific example of mega-rich pollution, the Guardian has a look at private-jet emissions for 200 celebrities since the start of 2022: “Jets belonging to entertainers, CEOs, oligarchs and billionaires produce equivalent to emissions of almost 40,000 Britons”.

    2. How to Maintain Mental Hygiene as an Open Source Researcher: This guide is geared toward potential researchers looking into war crimes in Ukraine, but I think the tips have a use for everyone in unmoderated or poorly-moderated spaces online right now. Additional thoughts not in the link that I’ve seen elsewhere online: curate your feeds aggressively, invert the colors on your screen and flip images around if you need to look closely, maybe play Tetris (one study, there are probably more)?

    3. Andre 3000’s new flute album, New Blue Sun, has been making the joke rounds on social media and late-night comedy. I like the album, and I like this profile about the album and Andre 3000’s career from the New Yorker: Andre 3000 disrupts our sense of time.

    4. I’m honestly sharing this one because summarizing can help me understand a topic better: ‘What the heck is going on?’ Extremely high-energy particle detected falling to Earth. Apparently, something like a supernova isn’t strong enough to create a particle like this, which makes it strange enough, but scientists have only been able to trace it back to empty space, which makes it even stranger. (I have also now learned the specific empty space bordering the Milky Way is called the “Local Void”.)


    Videos

    (Remember, if you prefer to read over watch, you can read transcripts on YouTube! See my first link post for more.)

    1. Why Dark Side of the Moon Still Matters by Polyphonic: This is the joined-up, hour-long version of a video series Polyphonic did on the Pink Floyd album The Dark Side of the Moon, which is one of my all-time favorite albums and a moving treatise on life, death, and modernity (in the ‘70s, but it still works). The video is a beautiful blend of visuals, audio snippets, lyric and musical analysis, and production review. Even if you don’t feel like watching the video, consider giving the album a spin.

    2. Three Specific Kinds of Terror by Jacob Gellar: An overview of horror as seen in the games Amnesia: The Bunker, Who’s Lila, and The Utility Room. What do you find more horrifying, how the gargantuan size of the cosmos renders choice meaningless, or having to live with the consequences of your own decisions?

    The video and comments left me most interested in Who’s Lila for two reasons. The game mechanics are largely built in unnatural facial expressions you control, and that, for better or worse, rang a bell with autistic viewers. Other commenters referenced another video essayist, Flaw Peacock, who made a 7.5+ hour analysis of the game. Whether I get to game or long summary first, I added Who’s Lila to my Steam wishlist, and the two “Similar to games you’ve played” listed are Disco Elysium and Phasmophobia. Promising!

    3. I Bought the Same Dress for $4, $30, $60, and $200 by Safiya Nygaard: An interesting look at the unchecked scam ad market on Tiktok (and although it wasn’t the video’s main focus, apparently things are similar on Instagram). Like, this isn’t (just) covering dupes of higher-end fashion design. This is hundreds of ads made from stolen videos, hundreds of fake reviews that steal pictures from Instagram and reviews from Amazon, and dozens of online shops that vanish before you can tell them they sent you the wrong product or that you never received a product at all.

    I’m not sure if the problem here is a lack of vetting or inadequate vetting. Either way, even if Tiktok and Instagram put more work into the process, things are still dire in the ad space as a whole. The video only touches on it briefly, but I was alarmed that Steve Madden (an actual company I’ve known about for decades) used a Markiplier overlay in an ad without his knowledge or consent (Safiya asked him directly). If a personality with his level of fame and clout has little recourse, what about the rest of us?

    4. You wanna see an edit where it looks like Cookie Monster is singing Tom Waits’s “God’s Away on Business”? (Trust me, you do.)

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    Rory’s links #1

    It’s been a while, Egregious! Nice to see you again!

    Maybe you’ve been reading the Sara Reads the Feed series. If you haven’t, here’s Sara’s brief summary:

    I try to have an RSS feed reader that keeps me scrolling through hundreds of articles a day across many sites – that way I get a broad look at things and don’t get bogged down on Reddit. It seems it might be fun to read the feed “together” and round up some snippets of my commentary on the articles as we go.

    I don’t have a curated RSS feed (yet, it’s on the to-do list), but having a sporadic place to link and talk besides my Patreon (which has largely shifted toward review and criticism) makes sense. Maybe this’ll give me a reason to get more deliberate with my reading habits. Skimming my browser history and seeing the lack of diversity sure was depressing.


    Links

    1. A profile of a Taiwanese doctor addressing growing visual myopia. There’s a large focus on children here for many good reasons, but I’m inspired to get my eyes checked more frequently and get outside more. 120 minutes of daily outdoor activity is way above what I’m doing, and considering it’s Seasonal Depression Season, it’s a good time to push the number up.

    2. NPR’s Fresh Air did a long interview earlier this year with Siddartha Kara, “a fellow at Harvard’s T.H. Chan School of Public Health and at the Kennedy School”, about the “horror show” of cobalt mining in the Democratic Republic of Congo. (The link has both an audio interview, to which I have not listened, and a written summary, which I did read.) Cobalt is often used in rechargeable batteries that are vital for modern devices, including many that are part of the switch from fossil fuels, like rechargeable cars. One thing you can do now: read a guide on how to extend the life of lithium-ion batteries, like this one from University of Michigan, so your devices need replacing less often. Another way to help (this issue, and so many others) is to support right-to-repair laws, which are being enacted in a bunch of places, including California.

    Capitalism functions in a cycle of exploiting and/or enslaving some of the most vulnerable global populations and destroying natural resources. It’s been that way for centuries (see also: the history and formation of the United States, for just one example). I haven’t watched it yet, but in Last Week Tonight’s coverage of the chocolate industry, John Oliver says the following:

    So if we are serious about getting child labor out of our chocolate, we can’t keep relying on pinky promises and the honor system. We need tough legislation that requires companies do the right thing.

    And it’s not like this is the only industry where exploitation in other countries is the norm. I could just as easily have done this piece about coffee or palm oil. And we actually talked about trafficking and child labor in the US farm system this year. But experts themselves say of chocolate:

    “…in few industries…is the evidence of objectionable practices so clear…the industry’s pledges to reform so ambitious, and the breaching of those promises so obvious.”

    3. A nicer NPR link I’ve had open in my mobile browser for years now: Sewing your own clothes can be empowering. Here’s how to get started Yes, this has dark elements: the link references the initial COVID lockdowns and lack of available masks, and my personal motivations are related to exploitative labor practices/climate difficulties around fashion that aren’t unrelated to link two. But it’s also just really nice to have more control over something that’s a huge part of your life. I asked for a sewing machine for my last birthday and got one; maybe I’ll finally use it this spring!


    Newsletters

    Anne Helen Petersen’s Culture Study fills my TBR list with so many good nonfiction books. Some good, recent author interviews:

    1. A Different Way to Think About Student Success, an interview with Ana Homayoun about the book Erasing the Finish Line. As someone who was ground to dust by the pre-college grind about twenty years ago and still struggles with what crumbs of executive function I can grab, it’s validating to see someone’s book reflect my lived experience (probably; I haven’t read it yet, but the interview’s promising).

    2. Butts: A Backstory, an interview with Heather Radke about the book of the same name. Not only is this a great topic to cover for reasons listed in the interview, that the author has to state “I should specify that my book is about the cheeks, not the hole” at the beginning is so good.

    3. There is Nothing Magical About Forgiveness, an interview with Myisha Cherry about Failures of Forgiveness. Incredible how so short an interview can challenge tired cultural narratives. I know I’m tired of the “rush to forgiveness” without any repair or reckoning for damage done.


    Videos

    2023 has been a terrible year for Hollywood. While the WGA/SAG-AFTRA strikes are pointed to as a reason, I’d argue they were more major attempt at repair than direct cause. The signs of trouble have been there for years, and this year’s rot had set in long before the pickets had begun. And, as someone who follows a lot of film essayists on YouTube, it’s impossible to avoid the topic (unless you’re excellent channel Accented Cinema, which tends to focus on foreign cinema).

    Note: If you prefer to read over watching, most YouTube videos not only have subtitles, but transcripts as well! They often come from autogenerated subtitles, so readability will vary, but click “more” on the description, scroll down, and click “Show transcript” to get a box with text and timestamps.

    1. Who Killed Cinema by Patrick H Willems: A feature-length look at potential causes, shaped in a meta-comedic murder mystery style. You wanna blame terrible execs, Disney/Marvel’s business model, Netflix attacking theaters, and more? This one’s got ‘em.

    2. Are Film Critics a Dying Breed? by Broey Deschanel: I’ve always found film criticism to be a vital part of Hollywood’s artistic ecosystem—I was a kid who loved Roger Ebert, of course I’d think that—and this is an interesting look into criticism’s past and the differences between influencer and critic.

    3. The Marvelization of Cinema by Like Stories of Old: Patrick H Willems covers some of this, but Like Stories of Old builds a theory around entropy and builds an argument for meaning in storytelling, even in big-budget blockbusters.

    4. The Inevitable Failure of 2023 Blockbusters by Friendly Space Ninja: If you really want to see how badly the major studios are faring in terms of budget, here’s ten movies that financially bombed in spectacular fashion. And this was posted in August. I can’t get over how big a pile of money Disney burned when making and releasing Indiana Jones.